When dreams are too vivid

When dreams are too vivid
It only means one thing
There’s a message that,
Needs to be delivered.
When dreams linger and all you do
Is mull over them for days while grinning
Watching life pass you by in the vivid hues
Of a dream
Knowing that keeping your
Mouth shut is the best thing to do
Knowing that truth is now bubbling out
Refusing to be still or silent

Deja – oh no! Not Again!

I know I should be happy with these opportunities, but I dost dare to beg for more!

I can’t handle this repetition and danger, yes I’m being superstitious but from a young age I was taught to seek/fix and if that fails, run!

At the moment though, my feet are spinning in the same spot, I have to gain speed/traction, egads an increase in my fiscal budget would do me well too!!

For now, as I’m still stuck, I’ll pray… and should it be, it dost be, I am thankful! Amen, this isn’t a cry, simply a plea to have more time to enjoy THIS!

Devious urges for things that beep *meep, meep*

It’s messed up, so many gadgets. Hands are outstretched, desperate to explore. Loved to play. Gotta be patient, always had a thing for sweets, anything shiny, things that beep…

See here I am

Been so long, head’s been in too many places! Technology has been failing me, but… I’m just passing through for passing’s sake. Leaving a moment of positivity, until next time.

Stand for a chance

the kids are not alright, growing up, filled up with so much hatred…

Many want to believe that without proper discipline, living in fear of the unknown, with no one to love, raised without love, hating everyone, that one is incapable of loving, that living with so much hate is blinding! It is, but the trick is to love yourself – to thine own self be true and good. No one will see, that you care, cuz you’re still leaning on the wall – missed your turn again (was too busy “setting” up)!

Everyone fell into their own rabbit holes, segregated and serrated – unless they “control” everything, barely reaching out, that the ones who watched and waited, loving themselves were *kanye shruging* their way to success. These days, pomp and flattery rule (here’s to hoping we can do some more good, and fix our Gulfs and take care of our Katrina’s).

Gotta be, extra smooth

So, trippin on life as per usual… flips through Fate playbook. It’s corny to say, but lately there’s been too many coincidences, being matchy-matchy counts for a lot especially when you’re incommunicado! *flips faster* Fuck!! Cant find anything!! Let’s be frank, this woman really wants those “long proverbial walks on the beach”. Seriously.

Yes!! But to actually be THAT happy aka upfront isn’t cool, I guess… My light is shining, imploding and exploding way too brightly, the moths are getting burned by this flame! I’m attracting instead of detracting. Gosh, the nerve – watch dismissal done with eloquent verve!

Don a pair…

Of balls, of sass, of smarts

Of common sense, of; or maybe with, a dash of hope

Why don’t you?

*kiss teeth*

Stop saying the shit I do, or the way I feel is wrong

When you believe/feel/love the same shit I do

Say you’re sorry

Believe that you’re sorry

Will yourself to be strong

Why don’t you?

Stop playing dumb…

You are so sure that your counters will impale my efforts,

*breathe*

As I fill your thoughts with morose remorse

Mayhap, quickening your ending as Hamlet’s father did for him

Hmmm, aptly ready to be begging for a pardon…

Let’s Go Crazy!

Should I barefacedly admit this aloud? Fuck, thank goodness nobody gives a fuck about me…

I never KNEW, knew Prince, I heard the name, I knew a ditty or two. This feeling is wrong, I missed this back then…

It’s wrong isn’t it, that I’m not growing up? I spent my WHOLE childhood wanting/being grown. For what?

To spend my ENTIRE adulthood being childish?

Anti_D8r crawls, bites & slaps *shrug* ;9

Behold, the rise of the anti_D8r; an unbearable sight. *weeping & wailing/gnashing of teeth* Ooops, u bought a tkt ;( ‘Dang, stop playing dumb! You are so sure that your counters will impale my efforts.’ *breathe*

Today’s Date: Morose Remorse
Best Move: Mayhap, quickening your ending as Hamlet’s father did for him
Best ♥ Scene: Hmmm, aptly ready to be begging for a pardon…
Arch Nemesis: Lovely, exquisite bliss

How will it end, tune back to the Anti-DAter, l8r – k, haters?!! Something in me is dying… Ring the Alarm (Fu-Schnickens)

The cable sna[pp]ed this time

Drove myself insane

[ *falling* ]

[ *flailing* ]

[ *bloody innards* ]

Then, I bounced off the last rock

Battered and finally seeing

[ *clearly*  ]

Hollowed, haunted, hallowed

This is fair

"I am more prone to be inquisitive, to promote discussion. I want to find out what your thinking was. I want to find out what your feelings are. Did you learn anything?" - Earl Woods

Good <  Right

Right = Might

I am what I am

The cable sna[pp]ed this time,

i WILL

[ * ROAR ;>lol * ]

This meno-major-pause, this anger has finally ceased.

And from now on,

Seemingly so angry on the outside,

yet smooth as silk on the inside -

With no one but the lord to please,

Granted it’s a bit lonely,

The cable sna[pp]ed this time, yet feeling at ease.

Every…

[ *falling* ]

[ *flailing* ]

[ *bloody innards* ]

and broken moment, will

BE

MET

JOYOUSLY!

Mark this, on the 10th of April,

in another year with my lord – 2010!

Signed, Nis Rennis, the sinner that keeps sinning, has changed much…